I call upon thee from the abyss

Dear… whoever sees this, really.

I have been trying to find someone, anyone who would reply back. Who would understand. Who would maybe not help, but at least provide reassurance. 

It's been five years already, and I think that despite many connections, the web is empty after all. 

Yeah, I know, I know. Hacking a blog of a mediocre, forgettable writer will not help my case and spam filters are against me, but I have to tell about it. I have to, otherwise it will eat me alive. 

I am tired of saying who the hell am I, but for the last time before I give up completely… 

I am Veronica, a gnostic magician and I just found a power that is from the outside. I don't know what that is but it has been whispering to me. I think that two worlds are merging and it will all become a roiling chaos soon. What do you think those are? If you know, or at least have a speculation which ones, please tell me.

If you want to hear my story and step into my little world of doubt and uncertainty, please reply. If you want to write your own story, I will listen and give unhelpful advice if you ask for it. Also if there is something, anything that would make you uncomfortable if I wrote about it, please, please bring it up. I am not omniscient, and I am apparently not a whole world anymore.

I'd have forgotten to give my address. It's spider-occultae@wp.pl and even if you want to only get messages with my story, (I tend to be a quite unreliable narrator, sorry), write even one letter back. And I mean one character. 

From the abyss I call upon you,

Veronica.